*pokes*
Friday, May 20, 2005
XD Just wanted to post here..*lol*
Anyways... I've been thinking of writing a new story. : I dunno. Ehh. -_-
XD
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Finally got an account at LJ~ :3 http://livejournal.com/~shiroichou
Yay. Now people would stop finding my rants at google. XD
I guess I'll be posting there more. o.o;; Well, that's all for today. Bye. :]
....fiiiine~
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Why am I feeling like this.
Ah well.. Guess it's just one of those days where I feel so...weird and so....bored. =_= Maybe I'll just continue that RO fanfic I'm writing. : Helps me forget problems and thinking of something else. >_>
Oh and by the way, I think I'll go get my self a livejournal account or something. D:
Aaaaaaannnnnddd...RO is being a beetch. So tired of being poor in-game. +_+ I don't have anything good to vend and whatnot.
And I'm so sick of vending pots and fwings. But well, whatever~ I don't really mind much. As long as I'm having......"fun". o_o; [elemental swordmaces and mocking muffs = so expensive to the point that I can't even afford one. u.u;;]
Ah well..that's all for today's whining.
Look, because I suck
Friday, May 13, 2005
STUPID JUNK
Yes, it's not my usual style.
Anyway. It's a lazy doodle of my priestess in RO wif some male assassin's arm. -_- Dunno why I drew a sin's arm there. Don't ask.
All I know is that I *really* wanna have that drooping cat headgear someday and a male assassin for my priestess' husband. Anyone willing? My priestess is 15-ish, yellow eyes, shiny, long white hair, ish nice and her other self is a psycho. :D Heh, I'm kidding. XD
Hmm..well, I don't really have much to say right now. I feel so tired and sleepy now. ~_~ Well..laters.
P.S: my stomach isn't feeling well, it's like I didn't eat anything at all. +_+ I don't think I skipped a meal today. I ate lunch and dinner. o_o [except breakfast..cause I'm still asleep that time XD] Agh. Head aches again too.
;o;
Thursday, May 12, 2005
I've been having this headaches for quite a time now. >< It's like pounding or something. I dunno. It does quite make my head feel heavy. +_+;;
But anyways, I'm listening to some "semi-old" mp3s of mine...it's so nice to hear them again. XD <333 I still love that song Rang wo ai ni. heheheh. :3
Uh-hmm..Maybe I should just make a private journal..password protected. So that search engines won't display my blog entries. :]
I wish I had the guts to actually cosplay. XD Cause if I did, I'd cosplay as a female alchemist any time. Or maybe even cosplay as a Munak, Sohee or Miyabi Ningyo.[Alice anyone?]
If it would be about console games I'd love to cosplay as Lenne of FFX-2. :D They all look cool. But in this state??! NO. ;o; My cosplay dreams will never be a reality. XD
I didn't know I.............lost some weight. O_o I got some recent pics after our trip to La Vista Pansol last week. I looked okay than my older pics. XD My older pics were like....ugh. =_=;;
Must be cause I've been eating less food lately and cause of the..erm weather? err.. _-_ But anyways, I like it...for once. I think I'll actually go on a diet.[hope it works -_-] I miss being called "payatot" heh. :D
Aaaah...here I go again. XD Before I spill out any more stupidity, I'll leave now. :D This must be the effect of eating some chocolates for today. Bai!
.....
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
I feel so empty and so...anxious.
Why am I feeling like this.
Maybe it's because of "that". Sometimes I tell myself not to think about it anymore but I just can't help it.
I don't want to be like this anymore.
Many people say that we should not have any regrets. Sure, it's easy for them to say but for me I just can't. To tell you the truth, I'm an idiot. I give advices but I don't follow them myself.
Sometimes I wish I'd just fall asleep one day and never wake up ever again. Or..I wish I'd slam my head hard on a wall or something and end up having amnesia. Yeah. Just like that.
I keep running away from my problems. I don't want to run away anymore but I'm so afraid to face it either. I'm so tired and confused. Why do I have to be like this?
I've been trying really hard to be more optimistic but I get nothing, it's still the same old stuff. I know. I just made my self look like a fool.
Sigh. And now my head aches and I feel weak physically. Again. I should stop my habit of sleeping very late..
=_=
Sunday, May 8, 2005
The outing...went fine. Dunno..It's not exciting or anything. +_+;;
Anyway, I won't go into detail about what happened. XD I just wanted to post something..*lol*. I'm beginning to feel tired and sleepy now, so later! bye!xD
+_+
Friday, May 6, 2005
"I-Is this...What it's like....to..d-die?"
"NO!!! Don't!!! Don't die!! Please!!"
"I feel....I feel cold. All over. Everything...Everything is so...dark...I can't even see a-anything.."
"Don't give up!! Please!!! You HAVE to live!!"
"...I can't even lift a finger..a-hahah......T-Thank you..for everything. Ignus."
"Esthelle??!!!"
"........."
"Esthelle!!! NOOOOOOO!!!!!!"
The scenario I've been imagining once I write Ignus' flashback thingie. ;___; My own stories makes me wanna cry. ioi I am such a stupid person. Killing off her own charas. I am so eviiill! >O< Gah. Exodus' story = lots of plot twists and killing and stuff.
Aaaaannyyyywaaaayyys! We're gonna go to Laguna[I think] tomorrow!! Yaaaay!! XD Outing! outing! outiiiing!! xDD
But right now, it's not that it's cheery or anything. My head hurts. >< It's like..my head's pounding and stuff. err..*can't explain things clearly* Basta ganun. ==;; And whenever I close my eyes, I feel as if everything's spinning around. @__@..Must be cause I always use the pc. ><
And aaaarrggghh!!! WTF is up with pRO right now??! Almost everyone's getting DC'ed and keeps getting "Failed to connectblahblahblah"??! >:o I dunno if I should top-up my account tonight. >< Sigh.
^^;;
Monday, May 2, 2005
Is it me or I've been acting really weird lately? ^^;;
Mood swings suck. And my throat hurts. ><
And right now, I'm having a stressful time with my RPG project. +_+; I don't understand those variables stuff. >_<
*also still need to do character images and sprites*
Gah. I think I'll take a break from it and continue writing Exodus' story for the meantime or get my lazy arse to start drawing again and finish those requests that I can't even start. :[
;_;
Sunday, May 1, 2005
My life feels so...............empty. incomplete and.............I dunno.
It's like I'm missing something...but I don't know what that something is. ;_;
Ah. Here I go again. Maybe I'm just hungry or sleepy or whatever. -_-
can you keep up~?
Saturday, April 30, 2005
@_@;; Title does not have anything to do with this entry. Just thought I'd write that. XD Since I just heard that song by Destiny's Child a while ago..*lol*
*semi-tagalog entry ahead*
Anyhoo...Full House's ending...=bitin. T_T They could've shown what happened to who more. ~_~ But it's so...erm....well....."nakaka-kilig" and stuff. >w< hwaeee..what the heck am I saying. XD It's SO not me.
But you know~ Sometimes I wish my life's story will turn into something like that..cute and stuff. -_- Okay, kill me.NOW.
[pero libre naman mangarap eh....]
Oh yeah~! I've got a little occupied wif that rpgmaker thingie. XD It's so addicting..*lol* I still need to do those sprite sheets and some character images though. ;_;
Sooooooo.....guess that's all for now. +_+ Later~
["Soooooomeday my prince will come . . . /ho" *gets stabbed by a buncha forks*]
~_~
Friday, April 29, 2005
I've been reolplaying my thief in RO again. I'm using her to hunt for 200 feathers for that stinking Ear muff quest. ;_; Lunatics hate me. >< I'm so bored trying to find a lot of feathers.
Right now..I feel so......blank. o_o
Pahabol!!!
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
AAAKK!!! STOP CLICKING ON MY BLOG WHEN YOU SEARCH ON GOOGLE!!! gardemmet. >_<
Maybe I should just make a private journal. -_- To tell you the truth, I don't like it when people quote my blog without me knowing. I'm serious. Especially when they quote my personal opinions. Please, if you're gonna take something I wrote here, tell me. -_-
Stupid Google. >_>
anu ba to..
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
*taglish entry ahead*
Haaay~ Ano ba to. Ngarag na naman ako. -_- tapos..eto na naman ako. Naiinis ako pero at the same time parang gusto kong tumawa or matuwa..waaahhh. It's not that I'm insane or out of my mind. @_@ It's just that........un nga. ay nakew. anlabo ko mag-explain. =_=
Bakit kaia ganun? kung kelan di mo na kelangan ang isang bagai or you gave up on something, saka biglang babalik or biglang lilitaw? or bigla na lang mapapasayo or saka mo lang makikita. gah. lintek na...>_>
Ngaun naman...haaay, di ko na lam gagawin ko. -_-
aaammmf. Anu ba yaaaaannnn....ano ba kc tong pinagsasabi ko..di ko mapigilan. dahil yata sa pagod to..gaaahh. makatulog na nga. XD
^u^
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Finally got rpgmaker working..hehe. XD Now I also figured out how to do those maps and stuff. XDD And now the sample characters and story I placed there...is starting to have a plot of it's own. *lol* That didn't sound right. XD
Anyways, I have to do some pixel art stuff so I can really have a personalised RPG thingie. :3 I've never done pixel art before, but I guess it's a good time to learn. X3 And also have to draw character images, not just dumping old drawings of mine as the chara images.. ¬.¬;;;;
But...I'm still having trouble with some event thingies. >
Well, that's all for now. XD This RPGmaker stuff got me really interested...heheheh. Finally my own rpg~! XD
RO related. if you hate RO, don't read. :D
Saturday, April 23, 2005
RO must-do list:
-Vend all those junk that's been on Aster's cart and storage for....MONTHS!!!
-Buy that creation book for Acid Terror for Esthelle! >w<
-Remember kids: Roleplaying is lotsa F-U-N! *rofl* Just thought I'd add it to the list.
-Save zennies. TwT [I'm so poor I couldn't even afford a mocking muff..dumb overpricing bastages]
Gawd..why is it when I tell myself that I must play RO more early to vend....I always forget it and only remember when it's already midnight..? -_- Oh the procrastination!!!
Oh yeah! Last night when I was at Amatsu w/ my guildmate we were making fun of those botters there..*rofl* They just popped out of nowhere and there were like..a number of them.
XD The bots were a dancer, a male and female rogue, a monk and a huntress. Not sure about the assassin. XD When we say 'BOT!' they reply automatically..and some of them even have '|00' before their reply. O_o
We chased them and kept saying 'bot' or words that have 'bot' in it. *lol* XD [Well, no offense to those botters. >_>]
Ughhh.. alright, I can't figure out which hotkey is which when I played Aster the other day. +_+ I haven't played that chara for months..akkk. *stares at alche and battle aco* >.>
But I did found a way to actually play her more often. XD She's currently located at a place no one usually goes and gives her really nice loots~! She can solo that place and stuff. YAY! What place it is? I won't tell~! myuhuhuhuhu... >:3
Well that's all for today's RO rant. xD Laters!
shiiiiiiiiiii ><
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Argh~ Right now I still don't have any RO load. T_T *dumbdumb*
Well..I noticed Friendster has that blog-thing now. xD I wanna try to make one. :3 I just hope I can use my own codes. o_o;;
I don't know what else to rant about. Ehh..I've been feeling lazy the past days. And..yeah. la na ko masabi..Anyway, laters.
P.S: Is it me or is my pc just being retarded? I need to ask my cousin what the heck is my pc up to. -_- It's been hanging like an idiot by itself, messing up my browser and lots more..grrr.
nooooo
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Oh my...!! What ever must I do??!!
Ehm, seriously. I sense an impending...catastrophe. Nooooooooo!!!! Please don't let it be..pleaseohpleaseohplease..! >_<
I know I did the right thing...right? I dunno..I know my conscience is clean about that matter, but I can't help but tremble just by thinking of what might happen.
Well, anyway. I'm really feeling a little tired today. My feet hurts. x_x Must be because of the walking and standing and....finding the goshdamn cr at the mall XD [pahamak ka talaga maan!! >:B *lol* joke lang.. xD] that I've been through today. ^^;;
Agh! I can't play RO today. T_T I ran out of load. My mom asked her officemate if he could buy a card, but her officemate only gave her the card number. gaaaaahh. T_T
Um, I've scanned 2 works yesterday. OC3 plus is going nuts on me again. ;o; When I try to save it, it just, poof! The window's gone and I can't save it. ><
When I try to open a .PSD file, and I try to save it...it always says: "There is inaccurate data !!" Or something. ;_; am I doomed to just use PS7 to color the artwork and redo the lineart? >< I don't like making linearts in PS7. They tend to look thick. *sigh* Oh well, guess I've no other options.
And one more thing.. why do I feel like trouble is always just a step closer behind me lately? o.o I don't understand.
Uhhh..well, I'm off to read some stuff and such. My body feels weak[wahaha] and my brain feels drained. =_=
ASDASFASDASDSA
Monday, April 18, 2005
ASDASDASDQWEAWFDASFAS!!!!!!!!
Grrrraaarrrggghh!! >___< I feel so pressured as of now.
I dunno . . I just feel like it. >_<
haay
Monday, April 18, 2005
*tagalog entry ahead*
[tagalog entry]Ano ba yan... Nakakainis eh. Nakakatuwa pero nakakainis. Ewan ko ba!!! Bakit ba lagi na lang ganyan?! Naguguluhan na ako! hmp![/tagalog entry]
Anyways..I dunno...I guess I've gotten over the depression I've been feeling the past days. *sigh* I may feel hyper today, but I don't know what'll happen later, tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. Well, right now I just wanna write a one-shot story and continue writing Exodus' story...urgh.
...
Saturday, April 16, 2005
I just want all this to stop.
Everything in me is screaming to die.
Everyone in this world are liars.
.
Friday, April 15, 2005
Don't judge me for who I am. And for who I am not.
Like almost all people, I never want to hear something that will hurt my feelings whatsoever. Most specially when it comes from someone you know.
So please. Just stop.
asdasfasfgsdg
Friday, April 15, 2005
Okay....
I'm listing stuff that I've been recently up to..:
Writing short stories
-Darn eet. >_< I keep on writing one-shot fics especially sappy ones. I'm out of my mind. >__<
Practicing how to draw males -_-
-Ok. I know. When I try to draw a guy he ends up looking like a girl. ><
Being an arse
-......No comment.
Right now, I'm writing a story about Exodus' points of view after their whole adventure stuff. It's easier than writing the whole and real story. x_x
Well, that's all I'm gonna post right now. I don't feel like writing more. I just am not in the mood for now. *sigh* Now, if you'll excuse me. I'm still trying to write a story. >_<
>_<
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Sorry for the last post...deleted it now. Again, sorry. :[
Anyway, since I drank another softdrink..I'm feeling hyper again..rarg. XD
I should stop drinking sodas...*rofl*
Well..I'm as always..confused again. My other side tells me that I should become more optimistic and cheerful again..the other side..I dunno, it just wants me to change to a different person. Gah..I know it sounds weird, but...blaaahh. I don't think anyone would understand anyway, so no point in me babbling about it.
Um..so today..or should I say yesterday...I just wanna forget it even existed. >_< I feel so guilty and stupid.
Right, so I've been thinking of my stories again. Should I write it first or make it a comic already? Ehh. Well, I'm almost done with Exodus' story anyway. I just need to patch up some things and stuff and I'm good to go. *sigh*
[rant]
What an odd day it is..I wish I can just tell someone all about what I'm feeling right now, what I think and whatnot. It's so hard to find people who'll listen and not judge you or tell something nasty on your back afterwards. :[
You know, I honestly want to become an "I don't care anymore" person. :[ You know..those "manhid" people. Even if people mock them or whatever, they just don't give a damn. I wish I were like them...a lot of people have hurt me from the past and all, I'm so tired of crying, regretting and escaping.
I know, I try to tell myself that everything will be alright and that there's a reason behind everything that's happened before or is happening right now. But sometimes, I just can't take it anymore.
Bah. What ever am I saying... I'm starting to sound like an idiot. -_-
Well, whatever. I know there is someone who'll listen to me...although I won't get any response...*sigh* [/rant]
So, that's all. I'm tired.
omgash. xD limited time only.
Monday, April 11, 2005
I can't believe I'm actually feeling kinda hyper. Blame coke..xD Cause..like..I just drank 2 glasses today. XD
I want a friggin' domain!!!! >:0 I've been wanting to have one for almost 2-something years now. T_T *sigh* Well, what can I do..I've no money to register one. Woe is me. >_>
Right now..I wanna start my comic-thingie. I dunno what I should do first though. Exodus' or Canary's..they're two different stories, just so you know. @_@
I looked through my old notebook a day ago where I wrote my all characters'profiles and drew concept art. XD I must say my drawings back then are total crap. *swt* But now, I'm glad to say that my new artworks are bearable. XD
Well, I'm quite happy with the changes I made concerning Exodus' story. ^^
By that I mean, removing extra characters that don't seem to be any use to the story whatsoever, and having my characters undergo a major make-over. *lol*
And tweaking some major and minor parts of the story and adding some more plot twists and stuff. XD
Although I still haven't put much thought about what will happen to Exodus in the ending. :[ Humm..should I kill him or try to find a way to make him live in the ending? baaah. This is so frustrating. Other than that, I won't spoil anything anymore. Except that there's a lot of tragedy going in that story..muahaha. XD
Then there's Canary's story. XD Her story..well..she's a newbie in necromancy. Hated by most people cause of her abilities. ;o; I still have to think what will happen and how to make the characters have a connection whatsoever and what the major plot twist is. xD
Still have to design the other characters namely Rione, Kyl, Feeorin, Spade and Intermezzo. ^u^ I'm done with Canary, Ricochet and Severine. This time I wanna try to do something where there's only a few number of main characters. :p
That's it for today again~! ^__^ I wanna write more about the two stories but I don't want to spoil the whole thing. xD
wth. xD
Monday, April 11, 2005
[rant]
What the heck am I thinking???!! I shouldn't even act or think this way!! It's not like..ergh. >_> Okay, Claire, calm down. >_< Who cares about that...that...grrrgrgrrr.
I should stop thinking about those stupid, stupid, stupid stuff.
[/rant]
Uhh..I haven't been playing RO lately. It's not like I'm quitting or anything. It's just that I've no one to talk to, leveling's been rather boring[that's why I just end up vending when I play -_-] and there are tons of "jolags" and bots scattered around. *swt*
That's why I don't even feel like I wanna top-up my account for now. XD Maybe tomorrow or so..I don't know. But heck, even if I go and play right now, there'd be no one there. xP
[To my guildmates: Come back soon~ please? pretty pleaaaaaasssse? I feel so alone. T_T]
[useless thought]
Isn't it weird that there are people who actually "care" for you but never show[well, maybe a little] or tell you about it? Wala lang.. I kinda envy those people who are content just by seeing/knowing that "that certain" person they care for/love is happy or okay. o.o
Gaah..what the heck am I saying. XD The "romanticist" in me is coming out again. I hate it. *lol* XD
[/useless thought]
Well, that wraps it all up for today. Dunno what else to rant about. xD
stupid art...and of pRO [LONG ENTRY]
Thursday, April 7, 2005
Right, so...where should I start..
Okay, I'm so tired trying to improve my artworks. I dunno. Whatever I do they all still trun crappy. I try to do that smooth, pretty and colored line arts but, urgh..and then I also try doing those shiny smooth coloring but...GAH. I'm so stupid..why do I even try. ¬_¬;
But I don't think anyone cares one bit about my artwork. I know~ Some of them just comment or tell me that 'they're great', 'it's good', blahblahblah. But actually, they just wanna make me feel good or it's just that they just wanna...post something...No offense but, that's what I think. >_>
Sometimes it gets me thinking: Why do I even try if all of it will end in vain? Also, I don't even know why I try to improve my drawings. I do it for myself but..darn it. This whole thing sucks. It sucks being me.
Wish I were as good as the other cg artists are.
But speaking of other artists..why is it that some of them become so distant and 'elite'-ish like when a lot of people look up to them? I'm not generalizing or anything, but based on my observations..Well. u_u
Ugh. I fail. At everything.
Moving on to the next topic...Uhm, well..lately I don't feel like playing pRO. It sucks being alone now. And then when I play..it feels like it's already become an "angasan" game, which isn't really what the game is about.
Dundundun~! Time for a long list of some types of pRO players~!:
Some people think they're god just because their items are the best and that they have a bazillion zennies and stuuf, and then some of the FS priest/esses are also becoming so "maangas" just cause they are "makunat"..I mean, sure, it's nice to be able to take less damage from enemies..but isn't it that being an FS, your role is to keep your partymate/s alive?
And then there's a lot of lazy arsed novices who just come out of nowhere and say "Pahingi po zenny plssssssssssssssssssssss" , "Enge po item plzz" and the like. They are spawning like there's no tomorrow. They're so annoying and so..lazy. >_>
There are also the types of players who are called "chicksilog" or something..they're those RL males pretending to be girls by making female avatars. Some of them are actually roleplaying and have no other intentions besides that, but there are SOME, who are EVIL and asks for zenny/tank/heal/equips/etc. They're also much like those lazy n00bs.
So we now fall into the "elite" category..you know, those rather snobby people, like those "maaangas" players, but more er...how do we put it...ermm.."refined"??? I've got no problem about them..but eh.
Aaaaaaand, who couldn't miss the "menyek" category?? I know some peole have those "ka-menyekan" around them, but they're alright. But then there are those "menyeks" that have gone too far. They're the ones who are constantly on the run to hit on any girl avatar and then PMs you those "bastos" stuff. pfft. Jerks. Hate em.
And there are also those "sawing-palad" wo/men..uh..love em or hate em, they're the types who seeks love in RO. >___> And hits on any boi/girl avatar like the one above except for the "bastos" part. And that some of the "sawing palad" people are actually nice. *cough*hidden intentions, anyone?*cough* *roflmao*
While we're on the "sawing-palad" section, I'll delve into the depths of the blind world of "love" in pRO. Okay..okay, I admit..there are people[some I know] who met their love in RO. But it's just that..it's kinda weird...for me that is. O_o So all you guys..don't kill me please. x___x
I mean, how can you fall for a stranger? How sure are you that the other person behind the avatar isn't roleplaying or lying or have any hidden agendas? *sigh* I guess it's true that love is like a rosary, full of mystery..or something like it. And then that female singer's song[forgot her name] the one wif the song "Love moves in mysterious ways" ahahaha..^^;;
Actually, I don't know anything much about the subject "love" but it's so unpredictable, that it's really interesting to observe eh?
Gosh..I think this is the longest entry I've ever written here. @_@ There are still some other types of pRO playes, but my brain can't take it anymore. xD I'm already sleepy..it's now 4:20 a.m as I write this.
But, you know writing about the types of RO peole actually made me smile. ^^ It's fun observing things and expressing your opinions based upon them. Till next time! Ciao~!
>_>
Wednesday, April 6, 2005
Sorry about the last journal post..I was pissed off yesterday. >_<
Anyway..I feel so alone. T_T
And, oh yeah~ Full House's episode today is cute..isn't it~? :3 er..wala lang. xD
you. yes. you.
Tuesday, April 5, 2005
I hate you.
kthxbai
I hope you know who you are..hmph. >_>
Wooo
Saturday, April 2, 2005
Amagawd..I finally have a copy of Ragnarok manhwa#9!!! I still don't have 8 and 10 though. T_T And I must say...LokixLydia is teh lav..!! o_o
Well, anyway I've got to force myself to read and understand that geometry book. >_< They say the deadline for the registration thingie for the exam is still tentative or something like that. *sigh* I SO wanna pass already. u_u
Speaking of exams, I still don't know what course I'll take if ever I pass. >< I'm so confused. Should I take fine arts? computer science? law? WHAAAAAAT?!~
Oh man. And now, I have this cold. It's really weird to have a cold in the middle of summer!! I keep sneezing and such. Grr..D:< My mom's preaching again. -_- And keeps telling me to drink vitamins and all.
That's all for now. I don't really feel like posting more. I feel so...so...weird today. oAo
o__o
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Okay....As of now, I'm trying to read this geometry book. I dun understand a thing. -_- Oh well, I'll try to read more. Since the placement exam's math questions are..almost all about geometry. @_@ Talk about fair, sheesh. ¬__¬;;
Oh yeah~ It's 2x exp in pRO yet again..o_o; I thought it ended already. >_> Oh well..I guess it's okay. Time to go and try to level my characters.
Sooo....right now, I'm almost finished writing the short story about Aster and Claude. >_> too bad our dog ate the eraser I use and my pencil is missing. -_-
O_o This is weird. My mom and cousin went to the school I used to attend to get another copy of my report card. The person they asked there told them my name doesn't exist. o_o Wow..I dun exist? O.o weeeeee~ xD Okay, that was stupid of that person. -_-
Well, I dun know what to write anymore, so..I guess that's all for now. bye!
amagaaaaassshhh~~!!!!
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
I actually got through Episode 15 of Phantom brave..*rofl* XD The stage that I got stuck for months. XDD So, now I'm already at episode 16~ Finally! :D
Well...about Suikoden IV...I just started playing it this afternoon..and uh, no offense but it's kinda boring, for me that is. o_o But I guess it's cause I'm still at the part where you board that boat after the graduation-eklat chuchu scene. xD
ANYWAY..this isn't the reason I'm posting here. x3
Well, a friend of mine in pRO teached me Algebra today~. xD
My brain was...sleeping..at first I had no clue. It's all greek to me. @_@ I forgot the previous lessons I had when our tutor told us about it. *rofl* Talk about memory loss. XD So now, it's clear to me again~!
But she'll be leaving the Philippines soon to study somewhere in China for two months. T.T
But I promise I'll study math more. XD
To Kijin/Shinigami/Hisoka/Mirai [dunno which one to call you x3]: if ever you're reading this[highly impossible tho ;_;]..~ Thank you SO much..I owe you a lot..aaaand, when you get back, let's do another punching session in pvp again, okay? nyahaha XDD
Sooooo, well, I'm so tired and so sleepy to think of anything right now..well, that's it for today. ^^
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Monday, March 28, 2005
Gosh, have you ever felt like your relative/someone you know is watching your every move? o.o I dunno..sometimes I just feel like that.
Well, anyway that's not the reason why I'm posting here right now. xD
So, like..today we went to the mall, and then we went to the mall's Chapel and heard the mass. [Happy Easter btw ^^] And then I was gonna buy a copy of Fatal Frame 2..I was unlucky. T_T I didn't find any shop that sells a CD of it. >_< So I ended up buying Suikoden 4 instead. Which I don't feel like playing...right now...maybe tomorrow.maybe.I dunno. -_-;;
And now..I feel so empty and I dunno what else. I don't wanna end up being the idiot anymore. So, I'll not expect anything good to happen for the time being. Whatever happens happens. I'm confused, yet again. u_u
[useless thought]Do you ever get the feeling that....almost all people are connected? to each other? in some way? Or some of the people you encounter in your daily lives..you meet them not by accident or chance but by fate? Or that we all are "destined" to meet them?
Life really is a mysterious journey. Turns out that some people actually will have a big impact to your life. ^^
Sorry, it's just that it's odd..but funny at the same time. *sigh* Guess this is the effect of reading too much fairy tales/romance/fantasy stories and whatnot. XD[/useless thought]
Well, that's it. XD I'm getting all paranoid.
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Saturday, March 26, 2005
Okay..someone, kill me now...and fast. Do it! Do it! quick!!! u_u
*sigh* well..that's life, I guess. I just have to accept the fact that I am *completely* usless in WoE sieges in RO. xD
I don't wanna go into detail about what happened today, I screwed it up completely, just perfect for everyone to hate me. xD
But then, if ever I actually gather the courage to try WoE again and get over with this..er.."trauma" it left me, I'd be there on time and I'll do all my best. haha. @_@ [but really..WoE is so brutal, but kinda funny, imo anyways o_o;;]
Well, leaving that topic aside, I feel so broken and empty. y_y I dunno, I just feel like this. I try to feel optimistic but..meh. It really sucks being me eh?
I wish I can go faraway with no one to see me. I'm doomed for life. >_>
So, that's all for now. I just wanna forget that this day ever existed. >_<
To draw? or not to draw?
Friday, March 25, 2005
Just as the title says. u_u I don't know. When I start to draw I can't draw anything besides crappy sketches. Y_Y
Oh..by the way....I'll be experiencing my first-ever WoE siege tomorrow!! O_O Yeah..well..I'm very nervous..I never sieged in RO before. Wish me luck~! X_x
Well..so..uh...that's it for now, I guess~ Laters!
ah~
Friday, March 25, 2005
Aaaah~! This day is so fine~ :3 Yet I feel kinda..grr..cause y'know what? Some people are just SO narrow-minded, the more you try to talk to them politely/properly the more they do the opposite. ¬_¬
But, forget about that..it just makes me so furious when I think of it. I wanna play Fatal Frame 2! It looks so interesting. Never played horror games before, so I guess I'll try it out when I buy a copy of it when I go to the mall. xD
[useless rant]Right now..I just wanna fly or run away from all this. No matter how I try to keep this feeling and the bad memories all bottled up, sometimes I wanna give up and break down or just die...Yes, I am serious. I don't wanna feel like this anymore.
But then again, if I try to escape, that would only make things worse....I'm more confused now.
Someone go whack me in the head. [/useless rant]
Well, as much as I wanna write more, my brain can't take it any longer..I'm really, really very sleepy now and my head aches..so..byebye! Laters!
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AMAGAWD!!!~
I can't believe there are people who stumble upon this blog searching for Zhan Shen/Mars and 'I think I' by Byul [and even about horses, omgwtfbbqhax xD]..OMG. O_O
It's kinda scary when you think of it now...Woah..that woke me up, my goodness. xD I should go sleep now, this stuff is starting to creep me out..*lol* XD I'm out.
OMFG part two~!
Thursday, March 24, 2005
I actually changed the layout!!!~ There must be something terribly wrong with me..!! And posting two times in a row!! omg! O___o
Well, anyways, I'm kinda sick of the old layout anyways. -_-
So..yeah~! There ya go! ^^ Archives are linked..*points to yer right* Also changed the site's name..the first one sounded lame. *rofl* XD
And..this layout was sitting in my folder for weeks now..ahaha.
Let's change the topic too while I'm at it..*lol*
AMAGAWD~~!!!! I can't believe I'm about to finish Claude and Aster's story...If I had the guts to do it, I'd post it, but no. I'm too embarassed to show it to the world. -_-
I feel pretty inspired to draw now. I guess I should start doing something now. XD
So..I'm out~! bye. My headache due to lack of sleep is killing me -___-;;
